NaNa's Secrets ...

IM BACK OnCE AGAIN !!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-27T21:23:00.004+08:00

im back !!! hehee ... so long nv update liao ... nw finally gt mood 2 blog once again ... so long nv blog liao reali duno wher 2 start ... anyway today i went shoppin so my mood better liao ... thanks dear helpin mi look aft my daughter .... though i did nothin much bt alone goin shoppin reali brighten up my day !!! went 2 bishan find sum friends talk talk den buy things reali happy !!! ok la nutin much 2 blog abt so is pics time ...........

PICS time ...

2009-05-04T22:52:00.002+08:00

DAT'S MY DA SAO SON N MY SON ... HIS SO CUTE ISNT IT ? WILL UPLOAD MORE OF UR PICS IF U COOPERATE WIF MI ...

LOVE DEM SO MUCH WHEN THEY R SLPIN .... COZ THEY R SO INNOCENT ...

SO HAPPY KOR KOR PLAY WIF MI ........

OK ... SHALL N HERE LIAO V TIRE NEED 2 SEE MY SON HW LIAO ....

TIRE ... VERY VERY TIRE .....

2009-05-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

i'm back again ... so tire these few days or i can say no chance no mood 2 blog @ all ... as i thought everything is goin well .... today my son HIGH FEVER ... reali headache n nw gt e wat virus so cant play play ... and is MONDAY so hubby is nt ard i hav 2 handle all by myself ... jus manage 2 settle dem dwn den can blog ... HAVE 2 DESTRESS !!! 2day hubby go ut so i bring dem over 2 my hse bt oso terrible ... reali monster onli daddy hlp mi coz my mum hav 2 wk ... bt thanks daddy bcoz of mi u tk leave 2 hlp mi ut ... though u didn do much bt i reali appreciate .... actuali i reali dun wan 2 bring dem ut i rather stay @ hm bt cannot ... coz wat my fil will nag nag n ut all of us will kana ... esp my step MIL ... i dun wan wait they quArrel again ... haiz ... 2day duno wat time hubby cumin back coz my son fever nw is 39.5 hav 2 montior ... jus nw he fall asleep in e taxi n oso my daughter so carry 1 by 1 bt once carry ut of car wake up liao !!! so no choice lor lk mad woman lk dat lucky @ hm no body ah bo they will c a mad woman running here n ther ... jus nw feedin my son milk he refuse n medicine so i hav no choice bt 2 force ... reali squeeze his mouth n force ... till he scare .... i duno y , everytime he refuse milk esp i will force him 2 finish coz i noe he can is jus he dun wan ... bt nw tinkin back i reali v jia let ... u noe lk crazy forcin ppl 2 eat ... puttin him in my shoes i feel so sad n scare ... sorry baobei ... mummy jus wan u 2 grow i dun wan every1 say u so thin .... hope u will understand ...

SHOPPING !!!!

2009-04-28T00:03:00.004+08:00

TIS HARTER NECK ROMER OSO DEAR BUY 4 MI 1 .. hEhE ... on my WAY LO ............

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yst hubby bring mi 2 tampiness e new shopping complex alot alot of things 2 buy lor ... bt 2 bad bring 2 monster go ut reali v stress .... so nv buy anything BUT .... dear dear bought 4 mi skin care product from face shop ... coz my da sao say e things ther quite good ...

ALL these cost $200 lk dat .... but reali happy lor cos dear dear buy 4 mi ... i haven try la coz my face nw reali alot alot of break out !!!! hopefully its reali gd ....

BURSTIN UT SOON !!!

2009-04-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

quite sum time nv blog liao ... anyway i reali feel lk cryin ut to feel better duno y bt i jus feel v v sad 2day .......... haiz dun wan 2 say details coz i nt reali in e mood oso .... shall n here .... when im in e mood den i will blog again ....

PICS TIME ....

2009-03-30T22:40:00.005+08:00

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WHY ?

2009-03-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

yst my back nt so pain liao aft takin e painkillers ... bt whole body v weak onli lor ... haiz ... yst i damn moody duno y oso ... yst dear bring mi 2 bishan n buy clothes 4 mi cox he say long time nv buy clothes 4 mi liao ... normally i go shoppin i will feel v excited bt yst dun hav lei ... everything i c oso nt nice ... i reali duno y nt in e mood @ all ... i tel dear i rather buy clothes for fie fie to wear on her bday den buy mine bt he say dun buy coz she already have alot of clothes liao ... coz my MIL bought alot for her liao ... i thought is her bday ma so muz wear nice nice ... haiz ... i reali duno y i feel so moody i reali wanna noe y ... den nt long dear oso bought mi a new hp coz i say i wanna change fone ... i shd feel contented to have such a good husband rite ? hlp mi to look aft kids nv go ut wif his friends 4 such a long time den onli every mon to earn money ... i hav such a good husband liao wats else i wan ? sumtimes i reali jus dun understand myself ... bt every time he go ut i scare coz he mit who i duno n v late den cum back i noe is wk bt i still v scare ... actualli i reali cant find any bad points in him onli his temper onli ... bt he oso change alot liao ... instead is mi always mk him angry ... today by rite i shd go over my MIL ther 1 coz scare i hav to look aft 2 monsters i cant manage ... bt i didnt go coz i reali rather stay @ hm ... go over ther even more tire though my MIL will hlp mi bt hav to rush back hm coz my daughter wanna slp den she will make alot of noise n keep wan 2 carry ... den 2day stay @ hm i oso pressure coz my FIL scare i cant manage den he wan 2 hlp bt he will get pek chek v easily ... n oso everyday nite he will go ut ... bt ok la ... lucky my da sao hlp mi a little ... hlp mi c my son while i make my daughter slp ... sumtimes i reali feel i m so fortunate bt sumtimes i dun feel so .... wat e hell m i thinkin ? i reali duno sia ... always tink i v ke lian lk dat bt aft seein ppl ard mi i reali feel im so fortunate ... nw my daughter slp liao n my son watchin TV so i can blog ... seriously i duno wat i wan 2 blog oso ... y i keep feel v sian lei ? wat do i wan ? i dun feel lk goin ut coz frankly speakin i dun hav much friends nw ... my hp seldom ring @ all or i can say nv ring @ all ... i reaLI lost contact wif dis world liao ... my life is nw onli my kids my husband ... every mon i feel so sad when dear go ut ... wonder wat time cumin back 2day ... ok la n here 1st my son make noise liao ... tink he wanna slp liao ........

HELP !!!!

2009-03-28T23:08:00.002+08:00

any1 pls hlp mi m back achin lk hell ... i duno izit PMS ... bt i endure n keep eatng panadol all kinds i try bt i dun reali hlp ... yst whole nite keep tossin here n ther nv slp .... my i reali regret when confinmen i bath n tk e stupid injection when givin birth 2 my baby ... nw i reali duno wat m i talkin abt .... i feel so tire whole body no strength back achin lk hell ,,, bt 2day i went 3 c doc n tk sum painkiller ... yst alreay v pain liao bt dun wan my hubby say i oso lk v serious lk dat ... actuali gt alot alot of things happen today bt i duno wher 2 start from ... doc fuck up lousy ... check oso nv check use give mi painkiller ... den 2 day afternoon when 2 MIL ther cant reali rest i reali feel lk im faintin soon ... after dat went CWP i wan 2 go walk walk c c oso cannot dear scold mi dun buy useless things ... actuali i jus wanna walk n look ard if gt cheap n good thing den i buy .. haiz ... watever he say 2day hurt mi though no big deal i feel damn sad .... sumtimes i jus dun understand y my brain can nv stop tinkin abt things ... den kana shout i mean raise voice , seriouly im nt happy bt i still act nutin happen @ all .... i noe he dun wan let mi anyho buy things bt i nv say i wan 2 buy is jus i wan 2 look ard n if reali i tink it i will buy ... bringin e 2 monster ut is damn terrible .... i m v v v tire .... y life is lk dat ? y dis y dat i tink i dun hav a goal @ all so i feel lk dat .... y ppl who wish 2 end their life will stay long bt those dun wish so fast gone ? again kana fuck liao i hav 2 look aft my bb n mk my son slp liao ... all he do is face com i noe y btdun nd 2 shout @ mi rite ..... end here ....

Nthing special

2009-03-26T21:48:00.004+08:00

jus dun feel happy today ... back achin lk hell ... den coz of order cake 4 my daughter den give a face to dear ... haiz ... guys r lk dat ... i thought look ard a few cake shop den c whether gt more cheap n nice 1 bt he is those step into a shop den muz buy 1 ... frankly speakin till nw i m still v angry .... y cant go ard compare price lei ? step into a shop c e design den gt 1 design gt boi baby pic i ask if can change 2 girl den they cal n ask whether can ... bt b4 dat i purposely take e book ut tel him i wan go other shop n c he say dun ma fan jus buy la .... BUT seriously i dun lk !!! bt still i went to e other shop jus near by cal him n tel him is more cheap n nice ... bt n up kana say ... say wat ppl already cal n ask liao .... so i fuckin damn tulan reali v v v v angry !!! so i jus hang up i say AS U WISH !!! when i go back he already order liao ... !!!!!!!!!!!! y cant i jus compare price n e design is reali nice ... nw gettin more n more angry dun say liao la ... y guys r all lk dat ???? he is dat kind like den buy lor ... dun ma fan .. haiz i reali duno la ... nt happy !!!!!!!!!!! angry bt oso feel sad .... lk dun kana respect lk dat ..... haiz ... sian ... i tink on my daughter bday , when i c e cake i wont b happy @ all ............

jus finish eatin ... i hav a damn habit when i nt happy i eat ALOT .... jus eaten a big big bowl of rice .... so hard 2 act nothing happen n act 2wards my hubby ... ah bo if i show a face he say i attiude him ... den quarrel again ... i dun wan 2 quarrel v tire ... mayb 2 him is jus a small matter bt y i feel so sad ? nt fed up or angry anymore liao jus sad :( den 2day kana shout oso i 4get wat thing liao ... bt oso small matter la ... i tink i ask him sumtime den he use a loud tone 2 mi ... mk mi more pek chek ... i understand he is nt feelin well coz his eye infection so i let him rest ... morning i bring my son 2 sch myself coz by rite everyday he will send him go ... i c he so tire so dun disturb him i push him 2 sch myself ... morning my back already achin liao bt still hav 2 act strong n front of every1 esp him .... i dun wan wait he sad i small small matter den act sick n blah blah blah ... even nw my back nt back onli whole body v v pain ... i duno y lk dat mayb PMS ba ... or mayb of the injection i tk when i give birth 2 my daughter ... or is it when confinment i bath ... i reali cant stand e pain ... jus took panadol bt lk dosent hlp @ all ... i reali feel v v tire 2day .... den still coz of e cake thing though i noe is small matter bt i v v sad ... i wonder wat hav i done wrong by comparin price ? jus nw when kovan wif my step mil wanted 2 but e panadol 4 muscle ache bt nv buy n up buy normal 1 ... frankly speakin i reali duno wat 2 blog abt liao jus lastly .... i m NOT happy today ..... i noe my hubby will nv c my blog so nvm i jus say watever i wan 2 say ... 2day he raise his voice @ mi though nt reali raise i feel sad den cake thing he lk dat i feel saD .... bt 2 him is lk jus a small matter i noe he will tink im crazy coz of small thing nt happy .... he treat lk nutin lor ... haiz ... i duno ... his chacter is lk dat so i cant blame him mayb all guys r e same ba ... they dun lk to b lk aunty lk dat go ard check price dis n dat .... ok la i n here liao i reali cant tahan liao ....

Yeah ...

2009-03-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

Yeah ... tml i will be freed ... hee ... no la jus miting up wif peg n grace mummy ... so happy !!! REALI long time nv c peggy liao wonder hw is she nw ... nvm tml i will noe ... i so happy !!! Coz i tink tml i wont b bringin elfie along at last can relax awhile liao ... HAhAha !!! Anyway so v happy coz my dasao gib birth liao ... today morning ... she is realli fast ... 7 plus go hospital 8 plus gib birth liao ... WA !!! Reali quite gan jiong another new member in our hse tml ... n oso tml i m goin ut !!! So long nv go ut nw long long time go ut 1 time feel so excited ... muz reali treasure e time utside ... Ok la i shall stop here will update again tml hopefully we will hav chance 2 take sum pics together ... O ya n oso i have booked on the 5th of April @ down town east chalet to celebrate my fie fie 1st Bday ... hopefully dat day she will cooperate will mi dun mk mi so busy ...

2009-03-17T21:18:00.007+08:00

jus some outdated pics ....

taken long time ago ... my baobei son look cute when young ? I prefer him when he is a baby ... LOL --

dis is taken when i bought him 2 my friend bday bbq ! i still rem he enjoyed alot ...

Yoz !!!

2009-03-17T21:05:00.003+08:00

Yoz yoz yoz !!! Haha im back again in e mood to blog ... LOL ~""~ Nothing special happen today is as usual a normal day ... haiz ... thinkin again lk reali nothing special 2 blog abt lei ... Y lk dis ? y cant my blog b full of colours n surprise ? mayb dis is wat happen when u hav a family and esp kids ... nvm i shall update sum photos ....

Whenever i look @ dis pic reali feel lk laughin real loud ... so funny ... my son mood is good den will kiss his sis 1 ... reali hundred yrs den 1 time ... Ha !

I'm Back again .......

2009-03-13T20:36:00.004+08:00

So long nv blog ... duno y nw lk no interest in bloggin liao lei ... mayb i m jus 2 tire ba ... nw everyday routine is the same ... coz of my 2 monsters @ hm ... wow , time files .... nw my daughter in 11mths liao turning 1 on the 5th of april and as 4 my son he's turnin 3 on 22th of may ... Fast rite ? LOL :D

Nothing much 2 update actualli jus a few new pics 2 upload ...

MY LITTLE PRINCESS ...

As seen , the big brother is tellin the sister duno wat ... reali funny !

3rd Anniversary ...

2009-02-07T16:05:00.003+08:00

~(simply LUV dis pic !!! taken @ studio ... )~

so long nv blog liao kind of lose track liao ... anyway wanna mark dis day dear n mi 3 years liao lor ... our 3rd anniversay ... hehee :) later goin 2 studio tk photo coz every year we gt 1 free photo ... will update again when i feel lk ...

OUR FAMILY PHOTO ... SO SWEET ISNT IT ??? BT SOMEHW FROM DIS PHOTO i LOOK VERI HAPPY SIA .... LOL :D

Look @ my baobei son face ! So bitter .... he was force 2 take coz he dun wan 2 cooperate ... kana scoldin from his dad ...

i wish i wish i wish ...

2009-01-21T23:24:00.003+08:00

Wonder y i wish ? Hee ... i hope tml dear can let mi go ut 2 do my nails alone ... actuali 2day i plan 2 get my nails done coz wan new year liao ma den my nail polish all fade liao den clip off liao from xmas till nw ... still rem when i last time workin in osim i always go do my nails every week n each time coz mi ard 100 depends on wat i do ... bt nw bo bian cannot anyhow spend money liao ... 2day dear went 2 service his car air con coz gt prob den he cant hot so end up we spend awhile ther bt n up oso nv do coz is e duno wat spare part spoilt then hav 2 go order den can do so no choice n we head 2 far east liao ... dear went ther coz his hair sylist ther so i brought my daughter wif mi go walk walk actuali wan buy clothing bt wif her ard v v hard so u noe n up wat i went to extend my hair ... stupid rite go cut short liao den extend ... LOL :D i reali crazy ... br most imp is i rather go do my nails alone coz if nt wait 2 long den dear look aft bb sure will kp mi coz my daughter is reali hard 2 handle ... anyway ... i hope tml when she slp liao den i faster get my nails done den later go buy clothes wif dear n elfie ... coz i reali nd his advise in clothings ... his taste is reali good ... anyway we shall c hw tml .... ok la n here liao i gt 2 rest liao yst whole nite nv slp till nw

2009-01-07T22:42:00.002+08:00

hihi ... jus came back hm from a temple in paya lebar ... dear dear go ther pray ... nw again eatin ice-cream while bloggin ... duno y when i eat ice-cream my mood change better n i feel happy :) nutin much reali happen today coz im a person who tends to 4get things v fast ... i noe today dear shouted @ mi @ dat point of time i was v angry bt aft awhile 4get liao .. he say i have a v bad habit dat i do things lk 2 dilideli slow slow ... bt i nv reali notice mayb too long @ hm slack liao ba ... ok i shall end here nitez

BYE @ LONG HAIR ...

2009-01-06T21:11:00.002+08:00

TODAY SPEND ALMOST MY FULL DAY IN E SALON ... sit till damn tire ... i rebond my hair cut n dye ... i dye red bt is dark red so lk black lk dat lor -- at 1st i reali nt v happy wif my hair coz i nv wan so short bt anyway iys cut alreali n nw use 2 it liao la ... nvm la new look ... ok n here liao nt reali in e mood 2 blog ... nw eating a tub of ice cream while blogin -- fattenin bt dun care ... jus feel lk eating ... will upload my lastest pic when i free ...

FAMILY DAY !!!!

2009-01-04T23:09:00.004+08:00

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(c my clothes behind mi ? so messy !!!)

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im back jus from my mummy hse ... tire sia ... duno y feel so tire nv go anywher oso so tire ... 2day dear n mi bought my son n daughter back 2 my own hse 2 find my mummy n daddy 4 dinner ... den stay @ my hse talk awile den cum back liao ... i tel dear i wan go e bottle tree ther bside play e bumper car den he say no ppl play 1 i wan go meh ? bt he say if wan go he bring mi go lor BUT .... end up oso nv go ... haiz ... sad:( though v e childish bt from e 1st time i c ther gt bumper car i hav been wanting 2 go liao coz i reali enjoy ... hee ... bt dear la use com @ my mum hse till 10plus ... i manage 2 settle dwn my baby slp den i cant tk it n fall asleep awhile nt more den 10muns she wake up liao ... den nvm la so late liao i tink oso close liao n cum i m v v e tire so i nv say much n cum back hm liao lor ..... afternoon when headin ut 2 my mum place i was reaku happy coz sure will pass by bottle tree so i can go play bt i oso been thinking bringing 2 along hw 2 play ? bt when on car 2 my mum hse my mood change again suddenli feel so restless moody n tire duno y ..... reali PMS ? these few days keep on mood swing i oso cant stand myself n when i feel pek chek i show attitude 2wards my hubby .... so endure try nt 2 attitude him hope he understand .... "aunty visit" nw while bloggin my eyes wanna shut liao ... v v tire .... bt oso gt another thing i shd feel happy coz i tel dear i wanna go rebond n dye my hair so he say wait ... den jus he say he will pay n let mi go coz he earn sum money liao ..... bt v funny is i dun feel anything @ all ... happy of course bt my facial expression is mono ... n my tone is oso mono ... is dis so call mood swing or im jus 2 tire ??? i reali duno sia ... o k la i shaLL n here liao cannot take it liao .... dis is hw my sun so called family day is spent .... happy sun every1 ... Nitez :D

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tIRE MOrIng !!!

2009-01-03T13:40:00.006+08:00

reali tire sia ... jus came back from market ... LOL :D went 2 buy meat n things 4 my son to cook 4 him ... n oso their milk powder .... my daughter milk powder damn x cost mi $18 plus for a small bottle ... coz its a special infant formula ( SIMILAC NEOSURE ) ... x nvm la coz it contain more fats n more dis n dat compare 2 others formula coz its 4 premature n low weight birth babies ... cost mi $100 plus liao ... shack ... go market nvm worst is bringin my son along wif mi ... tire sia ... so big liao still wan carry ... aiyo ... coz my hse here no market so hav 2 go to seragoon central 2 buy ... nw i m bloggin wif my daughter on my lap .. so nan de she can sit dwn ... coz her backside lk gt needle lk dat cannot sit dwn 1 ... c la nw she pek chek liao continue later .............

JEALOUS ???

wonder y i say jealous ??? haiz ... anyway , i oso duno la ... i nw mood duno y feel v e funny lei ... coz i thought dat being husband n wife we shd tel everything to each other 1 though nt he nv tel mi bt i m always e last person 2 noe lk dat ... today my MIL cum over to stay wif us n acc her so call grandson ... nw kana fuck liao la continue later ........
i'm back !!! nw mood feelin better liao .. haha ... mood swing no choice ... PMS bo bian ... ya jus nw wher i stop ? ya , say my MIL cum n stay wif us 2nite , hlp look aft baby in e nite so dear n mi can rest well gt gd n bad la ... she reali is e onli person who reali hlp us alot bt sumtimes jus cant stand her ... nt any big issue b jus she over concern bt my elder son liao n early moring will wake mi up 2 cook 4 my son etc etc many la ... dun say these liao coz she oso is concern abt my son ...nw is another thing is example dear jus nw rather tel his mum abt his things den tel mi ... angry a little n sad ... y i m nt e 1st person he turn 2 always ? he always rather tel his bros cal dem n talk 2 dem den mi ... in his mind is i wont able 2 hlp him ? or mayb always he tel mi things i show attitude 2wards him ? i dun mean it dear ... u noe things u tel mi i dun lk 1 bt i noe no choice so i rather dun wan 2 listen bt den when u dun tel mi i feel sad ... i oso duno wat m i talkin abt ... ppl say women is reali hard 2 understand ... ya ... reali hard i myself dun even no wat's excatly on my mind hw can he noe ??? haiz ... sian ....

tml sun , duno do wat good lei ... always c ppl blog so colurful c mine , onli black n white ... they always hav many progs outings wif friends etc etc bt mi , no ... my life nw is dear , my son n daughter ... i tink i shd feel contented liao wat else i wan ??? dear nw no wk stay @ hm every day acc us hlp look aft oso wat else o ask 4 ? aft marriage is lk dat ... things change ... no longer can do watever i wan liao hav 2 tink reali ALOT ALOT of things ... i can say i hav no social circle @ all nw life is lack n white ... no more friends gathering outings ... always go ut oso hav 2 bring dem along ... bt lucky dear let mi go ut once in awhile when i requested he will stay @ hm look aft dem ... b4 christmas i went ut in e nite ... wow ... reali long time dun hav any nite life liao bt when im ut , i feel bored !!! duno y , when i mit up wif friend i feel left ut wat they talk abt i dun bother ... dat day i tel dear 3 plus 4 i will rch hm bt to my surprise i came back b4 2 ... though im utside bt my heart is nt ... i oso duno wat i tinkin bt i jus feel v sian wan 2 faster go back hm n lie on my bed !!! they all jio go st james abt pubbin bt i nv go no mood @ all ... thoughout e whole session i was jus drinkin n drinkin ... so long nv drink liao bt nv get drunk onli feel v v tire wanna slp !!! LOL ! den yst i afternoon oso went ut walk walk alone nv jio any1 .. duno feel lk callin any1 acc ... whenever i take ut my fone i reali duno who can i cal 2 go ut ... nowadays my fone hardly ring @ all ... still rem last time im always on fone lk hotline lk dat ... so sad ... seems lk im ut of dis world liao ... haiz ... nw i nv wish 4 anything i onli hope my elfie n evan faster grow up den can relax liao ... whenever happen 2 c friends utside they always ask if i regreted marrying so young bt i nv ... coz im reali reali reali v v v fortunate 2 hav 2 such adorable kids n a loving hubby (though nt perfect n i always complain) , in my heart i reali LOVE him lots lots ..... ok la i shall end her 2day n will continue 2 blog tml if im nt lazy .... Nitez ..............

"lastly ... these r sum words from my bottom of my heart dear ... i noe u wont b viewing my blog i jus wanna tel u a BIG THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ... w'o u i reali duno wher m i nw wat i hav become into ... u change my life ... w'o u i reali lost my way ... its u who lead mi a rite path ... n i will walk wif u till e end of time ..... MUACK !!! im sorri always sayings things hurting u bt i dun mean it u noe mi im always lk dat nv tink b4 i do or say .... hope u wont mind coz we hav 2 reali accept each other good n bad in order to walk till e end .... "

MISSING IN ACTION !!! LOL :D

2009-01-02T17:54:00.006+08:00

IM'BACK !!!!

My dear elfie & mi !!!!\

wow look @ mi ... so fat liao ... hee ... any way it has been a long long time since i last blog ... reali reali tire n no mood 2 blog ... sian ... anyway its a brand new yr 2009 !!! hope everything will go smoothly 4 mi dis yr ... actuali ther is many many thing 2 update bt duno y nw lk all 4get liao ... aiyo , so young so 4getful ... anyway sum more pics below of my 2 precious ....

LASTLY .... MY NEW HELLO KITTY FONE !!!

Tears drop 2day ....

2008-10-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

sorry so long nv blog liao ... coz im v v busy lookin my baby ... haiz ... jus nw my tears drop bt i tink dear duno coz he nv notice mi ... i duno y ... reali duno y ... nowadays my mood reali v funny , i reali feel lk crying out loud all e way 2 make myself feel better ... bt i dun wan any1 2 c mi cry coz i dun wan they tink dis n dat ... i noe lookin baby is tire bt i duno y nw my temper is kind of getting bad ... i even spam my baby u noe ? wat e fuck m i doing ? i reali duno wat e f*** i wan ... reali duno ... my FIL did hlp up in e afternoon den dear did help mi in e nite 2 feed baby ... they all reali hlp mi alot liao wat else i wan ? WAT M I TINKING ????? i m reali reali v stress ... nw dear gamble again n more things which i dun lk ... bt wat can i say ? he is nt enough $ dat y gamble bt i reali rather he nt gamble ... 50-50 chance ... coz i need $ baby need $ my son need $ i tink he reali hav no choice ... BUT i dun lk ... i dun lk his job dun lk he gamble dun lk his attiude when he talk 2 mi ..... u noe hw long i nv go ut n walk liao anot ? 2day actualli wan go buy a table 2 put 2 DVD player cox his dad wan 2 throw away ... he throw alot of my things ... lk baby cot (BRAND NEW) he is wat keep liao no use throw dat 1 cost 200+ near 2 300 den e auto spring shaking machine oso throw use onli once dat 1 cost 100+ to 200 ... he tink no need money buy 1 lor .... n i duno wat else he throw la ... he say buy liao nv use throw !!! haiz ... i oso duno wat can i say ... though im angry bt he is lk dat 1 ... he dun lk 2 keep things ... den afternoon he say my room damn messy coz my da sao oso hav baby bt her room neater .... coz baby nv slp in her room slp in maid room ma .. den i gt 1 more elder son ... so no matter wat hw tire i m i mus pack ... nt i dun wan pack i reali hav no time ... look aft baby wher gt time > ?

MOST tu lan is dear keep lk 2 shout @ mi ... nt shout la is lk raise his voice say i flower leg nv walk will die izit ... he wont understand everyday lk lock inside a cage lk dat .. haiz i duno la end here 1st ... tire ..

my dearest "FIE FIE"

2008-09-17T10:03:00.003+08:00

my strawberry short cake !!!

fie fie in daddy arms ....

MY 22nd B'Day !!!

2008-09-11T21:11:00.001+08:00

*jus wanna mark dis day* old liao my 22nd b'day ...

ELFIE'S BACK !!!

2008-09-09T11:09:00.002+08:00

had a battle last nite ... damn shack ... nw fie fie is sleepin so can blogn awhile ... yst she discharge liao -- so nw all e way i have 2 look aft myself liao ... realli had a hard nite yst bt lucky dear dear oso help mi ...i tink he mus b v v tire .. he still have 2 wk n help mi ut fetchin my son back home ... reali tanks alot dear ... luv u so much !!! actuali my fie fie nt v difficult 2 look aft la is onli when she cry ... she normally drink milk n den slp liao bt yst nit aft my father in law say she nt difficult 2 look aft v easy eat slp onli den she change liao ... i tink is "pandang" ... horrible !!! she dun wan 2 slp aft feed liao ... den keep on crying ... headache ... ok la i stop here liao c when free again den blog la den i will upload sum of her recent pics oso ... hee :)

STRESS AR ...

2008-09-05T19:59:00.002+08:00

today is my daughter 5th mth old ... so fast she is already five mths long liao ... hai ... bt from birth she had nt cum back hm totally wif mi yet -- i nv realli take care of her fully @ all 4 5mths ... haiz... aft 2day i wont hav any chance 2 go ut on my own or 2 hav my own free time liao ... sad :( bt no choice 4 e sake of my poor girl ... tml i will b bringing her hm 4 last home leave den she can discharge liao so i will b lookin aft her n my son no time 4 other things liao ... dear dear 2day brought mi 2 ktv coz i have been wanting 2 sing since a few days ago liao bt 2day nt reali in e mood ... bt i reali appreciate ....coz i tel him my bday cumin liao den no chance 2 go ut liao la ... bt anyway i duno wat feelin m i feelin nw ... m i scare 2 face e fact i have 2 look aft 2 ? or m i reali sian coz of my bday ? i tink im jus lyin 2 myself im scare ... scare i cant cope ... scare i lost all my freedom ... scare wat will i turn into ... into a auntie ? i cant !!!! i cannot becum lk auntie ... my hubby wk wat job ? nt normal job lei ... everyday he face so many gals utside ... so many temptation ... so i hav 2 b a good wife good mummy bt mus b a pretty 1 !!! LOL !!! i reali dare nt go tink so much ... im bloody damn stress rite nw !!! y i becum so coward ? y others can i cannot ? i have 2 do it n prove every1 wrong ( those ppl who look dwn on mi always tink i will nt b able 2 b a good mum ) u all these ppl jus wait n c !!!! i can do it !!! 4 e sake of my family ........

**fie fie happy 5th mths ... **

mood swing ?

2008-09-04T22:27:00.003+08:00

sian ... duno y feel so moody 2day again ... tink is bcoz no $$$ ba ... baby bouns i spent almost all liao ... den jus nw bring my son go pasa malang spent $50 on game haven plus transport ... reali sian ... normalli i go pasa malang i v happy n excited 1 bt 2day no lei ... jus nw call dear hp bt another person ans call ... den i thought i call wrong no den try again still same .... so i msg who r u bt dear call mi back say i crazy izit ask him who r u ... den i tel him he say jus nw his hp low bat so divert call 2 his colleuge fone ... bt funny rite ? if he divert den he shd b ard him n ans when cust call him or wat ma ... haiz ... i duno alot of ? ? ? anyway duno la ... no mood 2 tink oso ... jus feel v e sian ... y ? y ? y ?

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GIDDY ...

2008-09-03T20:52:00.002+08:00

sick n giddy nw ... haiz ... duno wat's wrong wif mi again ... always gt problem 1 ... jus nw fetch baobei from sch liao n i came back vomit ... feelin v giddy ... take medicine liao so better liao nt so giddy lk jus nw liao ... tire -- duno y keep feelin tire lei ... i nv do much things oso lei ... 2day when 2 c my dear elfie ... she was sleepin when i reach n i manage to feed her 1 feed n den make her slp stay awhile more till she fully asleep den i leave ... i went 2 bugis 2 bought her some clothin coz she will b cumin back hm soon liao ... probably by mon ... coz dear say sat we bring her hm 4 home leave den mon let her discharge ... i reali duno whether can i manage when she is back ... i tink can bt jus v v "xiong" ..... bt nvm la i hav 2 ... den i tink my dis 22nd b'day burn liaO lor ... by dat time mt daughter is back already so i wont b able 2 go anywher liao ... bt nvm la i oso nt in e mood 2 celebrate my bday ... duno y lk dat ... normally im v e excited of my bday n i will start plannin dis n dat ... bt dis time no ... nvm la we shall c hw la ... den dear goin reservist soon liao aft my bday ... by dat time i gt 2 handle things by myself liao ... wonder hw it will b lk .... sian ... 2day nt in e mood to blog ... end here liao la ... SIAN ......

2008-09-02T20:16:00.005+08:00

hee .. reali crazy mi ... still got another 10mins b4 e mickey mouse show start den bring my son dwnstairs 2 eat his cereal ... so blog again ! jus called dear askin him wher he is i oso 4get he tel mi wher he is liao ... i asked him when he plan 2 get home leave 4 elfie den she can discharge he ask mi go plan coz im e 1 to look aft ... den i tel him im feelin v sad den moody dis few days bt i jus reali duno y ... i jus noe dat im nt as happy as last time ... y ? y ? y ? he say he will cum back early 2day to give mi some sort of mental talk ... sometin lk dat ... i duno when he's back i slp liao anot bt he say he will cum back early 2day ... i told him im moody he say he knows ... he know ? hw can he noe if i dun even noe myself ... m i sufferin wif some kind of depression ? nah ... i dun tink so ... jus feelin moody ... sian ... dat time i 4get when i went 2 kk n a social worker talk 2 mi askin mi hw m i coping n talk wif mi ... in front of her im strong ... i told her everything was fine ... im managin everything well ... i rem she ask mi if i hav time 4 myself i told her my time is mornin bring my son 2 sch den go hospital c elfie ... dat time is lk dat ... bt actualli i hav time on my own ... bt being alone does nt feel good at all ... i dun feel happy ... instead i feel some kind of lost ... so i rather find things 2 do hav my schedule all packed up ... she actualli told mi i seem v strong onli on e outside ... actuali while talkin 2 her my eyes r wet halfway liao bt i endure ... i cant let others c e weak side of mi ... 830 liao i bring my son eat cereal 1st blog later ...

i'm back !!! hee :) happy jus nw my son call mi "mummy" ... being a mother is reali funny when i c my son sutimes no matter hw stress hw sad i m i feel happy ... n jus nw he call mi mummy suddenly i feel so happy ... anyway wher i stop jus nw ? 4get liao la lazy 2 read back oso ... anyway nvm we will c hw things go .... another 1weeks plus my bday liao ... turin 22 liao lor ... shd i feel happy or sad ? no special feelings ... i dun feel excited @ all oso ... i reali feel myself v weird ... im kind of turin into a mono feelin person ... even if i smile or laugh is all nt from e bottom of my heart ... nowadays im so different ......

2008-09-02T19:27:00.002+08:00

yst due 2 teacher's day my son nv go sch coz its close so i acc him whole day ... we stayed @ hm nv go anywher ... i thought i will feel v v tire lookin aft him whole day ... bt funny im not ... bt instead i feel v e moody ... even 2day ... i feel v e moody oso ... haiz ... i reali duno y ... so sad 2day i lost $250 ... itchy hand la go play jackpot ... nw i reali feel guilty coz i take e baby bonus go play ... i reali feel v sad ... i wont go play liao la ... i c those aunties win den i thought mayb i can win a little ... end up -- LOSE !!! den i oso duno y i so dan bai go tel dear dear i play jackpot ... coz he hate mi gamble n he already dun hav much money liao den i still go play ... haiz ... bt i still choose 2 b frank wif him coz i tink being 2gether shd'nt hav any secrets rite ... my heart reali aches ... $250 can buy alot of things 4 my son n daughter ... i reali duno hw e hell m i thinkin @ dat moment of time !!! of kind of mother m i ??? i realli feel lk giving myself a tight slap on my face !!! im already feelin v e moody liao den nw lose $$$ i feel more worst ... when i lost my mind was realli blank ... bt when i tel dear i noe he nt happy bt he jus tel mi 4get it liao jus dun go bet again ... i feel so guilty ... dear dear wk so hard 2 earn $ n yet i spent $ lk dat ... if can i reali wish 2 bang into e wall !!!! SUCH A BRAINLESS MOTHER M I !!!! 2day went 2 c elfie awhile den go fetch my elder son wif my MIL liao ... actualli thought of bringin him ut bt 2 bad raining 2day ... so nv go ut lor -- haiz ... my dear elfie can discharge aft 1 more day home leave liao bt maid still nt approve yet ... i oso duno hw ... headache ... i feel lk bringin her hm bt i scare i cant manage both 2gether ... den bring her back oso good la so i dun hav time 2 go ut n anyhw spent $ n dun hav time 2 tink dis n dat liao ... rite ?

MIXED FeeLINGs ....

2008-08-31T22:47:00.002+08:00

Today went 2 brought elfie home ... a little tire bt reali happy 2 c her n can take care of her fully ... actualli doc allow mi 2 bring her back overnight 1 bt dear wkin tml den my son sch oso nv open tml coz teacher's day so i cant bring her back tml so jus nw bring her back @ ard 7 plus 8 ... on e way 2 kk my feelin is reali bad .... i do feel sad coz i dun wan her 2 go back 2 hospital again ... in car on e way she slept ... bt when reach ther e nurse say need 2 feed her medicine so hav 2 wake her up den she was some sort of angry den cry ... den later they wan take blood pressure n temp la ... den in e end i make her back 2 slp den i left ... "fie fie reali sorry mummy cant b wif u all e times hope u will understand " jus 1 more time home leave den can discharge liao no need go back hospital liao .. actualli my mood 2day is quite happy , bt den jus nw i saw dear dear bettin again i v v sad ... haiz... y ? i noe he hav his reason coz of $$$ bt i already TOLD him alot n many many time liao i dun wan him 2 gamble again !!! anyway he jus wont listen 1 la ... he always tink he do watever things always hav his reason ... n im sick n tire 2 say anymore liao ... as he wish ... im tire ... tml baobei no sch i still hav 2 rest early 2day to acc him tml .... nw im dwnstair usin another com 2 blog ... coz i dun wan use com infront of him den later he nag or wat again ... sian ... wonder hw my daughter nw ? her feedin time is @ 1030 duno she slp liao anot hope so ... anyway fie fie sorry mummy say tml will go c u bt i 4get tml kor kor no sch im nt able 2 go ... :( haiz ... ok la end here liao going up 2 c whether my son slp liao anot den i oso wanna try 2 rest early liao ... NITEZ ......

SIAN SIAN SIAN !!!!!!!!!!

2008-08-30T22:44:00.007+08:00

hai ... reali damn sian 2dAY .... i duno wher 2 start from oso ... okay start from good news is my menses cum liao !!! so means im nt pregant ... bt duno y i den feel happy relieve or sad @ all ... weird ... y lk dat lei ? im so scare im pregnant again bt when i noe im nt i dun feel happy @ all ... haiz ... mayb i reali wan 2 hav another baby ba ... bt i noe i cant .... anyway dat's all den yst i cough n cough den go c elfie bt i dun dare 2 reali go near 2 her coz i scare wait she oso kana ... den yst speak 2 doc say i can bring her back 2day 4 home leave bt n up cannot another doc say scare i haven recover n spread my virus 2 her ... so sad :( bt nvm she day tml morning den bring her hm ..... den jus onli i kana kp by my hubby say room so messy ... den he quite pek chek den he pack lor ... i did try my best 2 keep my room clean ... bt nowadays im reali v v tire .... jus dun feel lk doin anything dun wan do dis dun wan do dat i oso duno y ... nw he is makin my son slp n when i c him pack up i sum kind of feel im v useless ... wat can i do 2 b a good wife n good mum ... reali v v hard ... i reali did change alot ... mayb when im young everything is all done by maid ... anyway i noe nw different liao ... nw a mother of 2 n a wife liao ... so i hav 2 change !!!! n i did .... coz of my 2 baobei i reali did change alot ... nw 2 mi everyday is lk a fixed schedule ... no time 4 myself at all ... 2 my hubby he always think when i send my son 2 sch i hav my own time liao bt he is wrong ... he jus dun understand mi .... haiz ... n 2day i noe he gamble ... i feel kind of sad ... i scare he will start again ... n u noe la humans r greedy ... jus close 1 eye n c la ... i oso dun wan go tink dis n dat ... n up more worst .... so i tink i stop here liao ... he nw talkin 2 mi non stop liao den say nothing is better den talkin 2 him ! HAHA funny n yp still quarrel ... i noe 1 ...

FEELIN SICK AGAIN !!!!

2008-08-28T22:29:00.002+08:00

fie fie sorry today mummy nv go c u again .... miss u alot alot ... bt 2day nv reali feelin well runin on fever ... duno y when i dun c her i feel lk seein her bt when i leave hm wan go c her liao my feelin change .... wat happen ? y lk dat ? haiz ... anyway 2day my MIL go hlp mi c her liao she noe i nt feelin well den tel mi rest den she go c can liao ... Glad 2 hear dat nw fie fie can drink 3hrly liao ... bt 90mls onli la ... slowly la ... they will slowly increase if they tink she can ... my dear elfie i noe u veri soon can cum back hm liao ... when i noe she can cum back i dun feel happy dun feel sad ... i duno wat e hell m i tinkin !!!! i better wake up ! Any way 2day went 2 fetch my son early den wif my MIL n duno who quite alot of ppl bring my son go compass pt walk walk .... he seems veri happy coz long time nv bring him ut liao ... im too tire nw even sat n sun oso nv bring him ut coz i gotta look aft mei mei stay overnite @ kk .... anyway ok la ... stop here liao sum sort of lazy ... Duno my stupid dear wat time cum back 2day liao ... same endure DUN CALL OR MSG HIM !!!!

At Last !!!

2008-08-27T21:38:00.002+08:00

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hee ... blog again ... @ last i manage 2 get e cbox in my blog ... nw still duno hw 2 add music , video n all other things ... i tink slowly la .... everytime c other ppl blog so nice i feel so sad ... damn lousy !!! hai ... anyway i rem wat i wanna say liao ... yst i damn piss wif wif dar dar ... stupid idiot make me drop tears ... no quarrel ... jus dat he came back hm v v late ... i tink 3 plus ba ... coz i oso nv wait 4 him ... i called him i tink ard 12 plus he say he stuck in a outlet ... den 1 plus i msg him if he cumin back liao he called mi saY his boss dun wan 2 go hm yet n they go 2 another pub or wat i tink bt when he called mi he sound happy so i nv say much n hang up ... den idiot he msg mi say i sick ( e manner i talk ) he say he dun hav a choice den he say : u tink i nt tire meh ? dun wan go back early ? den oso tel mi his manager oso hav no choice bt 2 acc his boss coz they hav no rights 2 leave until his boss say go hm ... reali angry n sad yst duno y ... though i understand he reali dun hav a choice bt @ dat moment i was damn pissed off !!! i tel him i wont care abt his things anymore ! i dun care wat time he cumin back hw much he drank n blah blah blah ... (though i still care) bt i muz stand strong !!!! i DUN CARE !!! 2day im nt goin 2 msg him askin him wat time cumin back n watsoever .... later i will make my son slp den i oso try 2 slp liao !!! bt i noe i will toss in bed 4 duno hw long b4 i can fall asleep ... nvm i will nt tink of anything jus sleep !!! ok ... i shall end here liao n wait for awhile den make my son slp ... Nitez ....

mOOdy ....

2008-08-27T19:52:00.003+08:00

today reali moody tire n feelin felin v e sick ... kept on feel lk vomiting den giddy headache i duno jus feelin v bad !!! i went 2 bought e tester 2 test liao negative lei .... n i double confirm wif doc oso negative ... bt i jus duno y im feelin lk dat .... i ask e doc he told mi wait 4 1 more week if i still miss my menses den test again ... coz he say mayb im too stress or nt enough rest ... haiz ... i oso duno y lk dat ... no matter hw sick i m i wont smoke oso feel lk vomitin 1 lor -- y lk dat ? today feelin 2 sick n tire liao nv go c my fie fie ... " fie fie sorry mummy 2day nv go c u dun angry wif mummy ok ? tml mummy go c u " miss u alot alot ... reali duno wat i wan , tire dun feel lk rushin here n ther bt reali feel veri bad nv go c her ... she muz b angry wif mi ... :( anyway i juz get vomitin n giddy medicine from doc den wait 1 more week n c hw lor ... i oso hop its negative bt all my signs n symptoms show e same when im pregnant .... ok wake up dun tink so much gt 2 prepare ceral 4 my son 2 eat liao ...

FEEDING TIME ... @KK MY dearest son EVAN @ BK

TIME FLIES

SO FAST .......................

NeW BLOG !!!

2008-08-26T21:26:00.005+08:00

Dis will b my new blog ... previous : http://crazymummy.blog.com/ ... but i find it veri hard 2 upload pics n many many things ... so start a new blog ... hee :) reali crazy ...

my dearest ELFIE ... cute ??? veri hard den manage 2 caught her smile ... anyway 2 day i went kk 2 c her bt 2day her mood is nt veri good ... i went wif my mother in law , she's back fron india ... bt duno y fie fie throw temper 2day ... duno is angry wif mi yst nv go c her or wat ... haiz ... sad ... anyway tml mummy will go acc u again ...

duno y dis few days i feel so tire ... i slept for long long hrs since sun aft stayin @ kk overnight .. sat brought her hm (home leave) brought her 4 a hair cut nw she is a nun ... haha ... den my hubby look aft my son i look aft her ... realli tiring .. 2hrs feedin ... by e time she finish her milk n make her slp less den 30mins another feedin liao ... reali tire ... bt i noe its worth it !!! actuali she is able 2 discharge alreadly bt its jus dat i cant manage so wait till we employ maid approve liao den bring her back ... soon liao .... nw i jus reali scare im pregnant again ... reali cannot !!! GOD , pls i reali cant get pregnant again ... my daughter need special care n my son oso stick 2 mi ... nw im waitin a few more days ... dare nt go test though i missed a few days liao ... reali pray hard ... NO !!!!

dis is taken on NATIONAL DAY !!! we r all in RED !!! onli mi N my son .... haha ... didnt manage 2 take a family photo ...

*dis blog is easier 2 upload pics ... * from nw on i use dis blog !!! wInk :")